Extended Profile of Faustino Gomez H000433

Faustino Gomez H000433

  • Sex: Male
  • D.O.B.: 8-14-1969
  • Race: Mexican
  • Religion:
  • Crime: Murder
  • Sentence: 2021
  • Prison: Centinela State Prison

I would like to meet some different people who are interested and open to having a relationship with a person who is incarcerated. I am looking to be able to assist those in conflict with their inner selves and need someone who is not judgmental. My experience can be a useful tool to those willing to take a chance.
I am looking for pen pal friends between 30 and 45, who are interested in writing someone in prison, who believes everyone has a good heart inside.
If you would like a prison pen pal, Please write me at
Faustino Gomez
H=00433 c-2-143
Centinela State Prison
PO BOX 921
Imperial, CA 92251
Or you can e-mail me if this is your first letter and it will be forwarded to me. Be sure to add your return mailing address.
Faustino@askaconvict.com
http://www.myspace.com/faustino_g

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Q:

Hi hope all is good as it gets on your end! My question is, reference to the question about sex in prison. I am a woman and I know that masturbation can do so much so I cant imagine being a man. Anyways, What do men do that are in prison for years and years? I mean dont they typically give in to another man? Because I know I would need something more than my hand.
Take care sweetie :)

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Elizabeth,
Well self pleasure is things of prison, that and having a good imagination cause we know that for the most part inmates cannot have sex on a frequent basis. I myself am a sex fiend, so it brings me good vibes when I see females in the environment. Homosexuality does exist in some prisons, but not all prisons condone such behaviour. Now what happens behind closed doors is another matter. There are things you can do to get mind working whether it be pornographic material (some prisons) or the reading sex books. It would be nice to have some naked blow up dolls. I myself have too much time to be allowed family visits. We sometimes donít even know what we can do, Iím sure you probably think one would get bored, ďbut would you get bored with too much sexĒ??? Thatís the $50.00 dollar question, it depends on what goes on with the way one sees the world. I have a healthy sex life even if i am in prison. Not your typical type of sex, but itís sex nonetheless. It releases the frustration. I feel a whole lot better, I can lay there and watch programs and let mind wonder. I do like big butt girls so that usually gets the body working. The rest is all mental reason being that we donít even realize just how things really are, Iím not saying that will replace the feeling of being with a woman or trying to be with another man, even if it is you doing the fucking. I want to see a pussy when I lick anywhere. I do hope I have enlightened you some about what we need to be doing for ourselves.
Have a good day... Write me
Faustino

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Hellllllo,
I would like to know what u were accused of? Yeah I know murder or robery yadda yadda but what was the exact accusation? Stabbing someone to death, masterminding, chocking someione? What was the scenerio and story?

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well, I personally didn't murder anyone, but the law says I'm aiding and abbetting, which basically carries the same time as if I've done it. So I carry the same time, 32 to life as codefendant. As to why, I'd have to answer stupidity, a personal matter that went bad.

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Do you ever hear other inmates cry themselves to sleep? Or after their children and familes come and visit do any of them cry when they get back in their cells? Is prison really cold at night like they say? Do you only get a thin sheet? And can u go to sleep at whatever time you want or is there lights out? If so what time? And how do they wake you up? By banging on your cell or a loud morning alarm?

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Yes, there are inmates who cry themselves to sleep especially one's family has come and gone. Remember one is still human. Only difference is incarcerated we all do different things to help us forget By dwelling on something sad it creates feelings that can create bitterness and depression.
Yes prison is cold for some reason. The air always seem to be up full blast, one always has to stay bundled up. We do get two thin sheets but also get two blankets. So one does stay warm at night. You can go to sleep and anytime you want here and you can sleep all day if you want. That is unless you have a present job assigned . The best thing for one is to get themselves a good program going. I for one am set in my ways. I have my own hours, which work for me. Everything is unlocked, at 6 a.m. and lockdown at 9 p.m. In the morning they announce breakfast, but they don't wake you up, as you don't have to go if you don't want to . NO They don't have loud morning alarms or bang on your cell. Not to say it doesn't happen in other prisons are states in all depends on where you're at cell living is better as more privacy

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I sent you the question about why do prisoners have web sites. For one thing I know that prisoners are mothers, fathers, brothers, etc. Yes I know this all to well. I have to find ways to feed my child cause his "great" father likes to stay in and out of prison. Welfare? I wish I could. My childs father always finds the great lord above and he is always saved while he is in prison but as soon as he gets out he leaves the lord where he found him. Help a prisoner... Never ever will cross my mind. There are child molesters in prison. Will they change? Never. There is people in prison that has took a life away from another person. Does the dead get a second chance? Does the child that was raped and taken away from there family get a second chance? No. So why care if theses prisoners wants a second chance? You want to make a differance than great make a differance feed a starving family. Help a elderly that can't afford meds. Make a differance with the children that there mom or dad is in prison and has noone to turn to.

Everything that you have have wrote in your answer does not make me feel sorry one bit. Great if the gaurds are dishonest. What comes around goes around.

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Yes, as I suspected, you are upset and bitter about the fact that your baby Daddy hasnít lived up to your expectations. Instead he has been in and out of prison. You're letting the actions of one person (your Ex ), I'm assuming determine your feelings about everyone else who is incarcerated. Iíll be the first to admit people do seem to find God in prison. I look at that as a copout for the very reason that you yourself have experienced. In prison Christians or people into their religion are usually let alone and not bothered for the most part. So a lot of people say they turned Christian to avoid things. I've tried to understand those people as well. Some of them have something to hide (under cover child molesters,) but that's where you have a misconception of inmates. You should be mad at the politicians, court, and judges who protect these people. You wouldn't have to worry about child molesters getting out, as they wouldn't make it a place in general population with everyone else. So your anger is directed at the wrong direction. We also see them as despicable beings. If you are treated like dirt by someone you trusted, you shouldn't deny someone else a second chance. So to actually change for the better. It looks like you already made up your mind, though. Anyone can respect your decision. We are not asking that you feel sorry for us. I myself don't need any pity. I want to know someone who is for real and not doing things because of some obligation. I too have a daughter who's had to suffer my absence for the last 17 years. I canít give her that time back. Do I feel guilty? Yes! There is nothing I can do, so, I don't get bitter about it and make the best out of life regardless of the situation I may be in. Youríe looking for revenge. You can even tolerate abusive guards, even though they violate the law that says a lot about your sense of being.You speak out of anger. That's okay, but at least directed at those who caused your ire and not by putting everyone else in the same basket. I do wish you good luck and sin sincerly I hope you're able to find something to give you peace of mind.

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Hi Faustino,
My question to you is: if you have a complaint (about anything) are there avenues open to you in which your complaints can be heard, addressed and dealt with? Today is the first cool day we've had in 2 weeks of 42 degree C+ temperatures! :) Have a nice day and a great week! :)

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Answer to Maria, you ask me if there are avenues to file complaints about anything. Yes, there is it's called an inmate appeals form, commonly referred to as a 602. You can file complaints against staff correctional officers, lack of medical attention, and cold food. If not properly addressed, there are a lot of issues, one can raise. Inmates are issued a title 15 (prisoners rules and regulations) that states what we are entitled to. So it's not hard to file a complaint and have it addressed. There is information on fist second and third level. So you can pursue it to the director if need be, or even the courts once you've exhausted your ministry of remedies, everything has its own set of guidelines, though. We do have rights, though.
Yes about the weather it is been cold here as well as cloudy and rainy. It is cleared up for the most part, When a rain has come and gone it actually gets colder in the cell. One day I went out to the yard, and my hands got all non-playing football in the frigid cold rain. Took me back years, sometimes I still think I am a teenager. I do hope I answered your question, I also hope you have yourself a nice day and a great week. Thanks for asking a question anytime you wish dropped at all even look on the calendar when you log on to the site

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For those people in prison who has family that left them, shunned them away and disowned them what happens to them when they are released? Where do they live at? How do they eat? When they have no family to turn to? Do you think this causes them to fall back into the life of crime in order to survive again since they have no choice?

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Yes, it's very hard to be able to succeed. Once released with no type of support. I think being rejected by one's family is even worse is that creates resentment, making it more likely he will return as he may think the only type of camaraderie is in prison. Their people probably treat him better than his own family, so feeling, alone with no place to go, he may see no other way but to commit another crime, and he'll be returned to prison, It is sad, but that's reality. One does what one needs be done to survive and if that means committing another crime then so be it. Life is cruel like that . sometimes though, I don't see it as no excuse, though. It is using, that is a copout. People sometimes find it easier to blame all on the hand they were dealt in life. One needs to be able to pick one's self-up, one can succeed if one wishes by having a support network, it makes a big difference. It can be the difference between succeeding or failing. Once released from prison, if you have more of an incentive to succeed, and I think that will help a whole lot. I hope I've answered your question, one doesn't starve once released, though the parole agent is required to provide housing and allow its food stamps. A lot of the time though, the housing that is provided in a seedy part of town. So that won't tell people need to understand you don't want to angry individual being released from prison. The thing is to give him and show him the support he needs.

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Do your kids still speak to you? How do u try and set examples for your kids while your in prison? Since your in prison who takes care of your kids? Do they visit often??

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Answered to curious. I have one daughter, and although I haven't heard from her in a while she does write me from time to time. It's been a while since I last heard from her shall be 18 this year is not old enough to come see me alone. It is hard to be or set an example from a situation I'm in that I do try to give her advice says she doesn't make the same mistakes as me and the end. It'll be up to her, though just how much of it she accepts. She's been a foster home for time I've been incarcerated because there hasn't been no one there to take care of her mother had them taken away and never return. I never received no visit from her though. She's on her own things. I do hope it will eventually change though. Thank you for your time.

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Who did u murder? Or what did you do to get life in prison? If u did murder someone than wht?

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Jasmin, well, I personally didn't murder anyone, but the law says I'm aiding and abbetting, which basically carries the same time as if I've done it. So I carry the same time, 32 to life as codefendant. As to why, I'd have to answer stupidity, a personal matter that went bad.

Q:

Hello,
Happpppy Holidays and happy new year! Let's be positive

Are you in a high max. Supervised security cell? Are you alone in a cell?

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Jasmine, happy holidays to you, and that you have a hop happy and positive new year. No. I'm not in high max, but I'm in general pop highest level. Yes, we are in a cell with partners. There is a high degree of supervision in this prison setting.

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What do you think you took for granted before and if you could would make sure noone else takes for granted ever again?

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I took my family for granted. I can't even count the amount of times my mother told me to straighten out and get my life together. Where are your friends when you're in jail and though all that she's still there. I was really an unappreciative son. I couldn't seem to settle down, even when the opportunity was there. Even my father tried to get me started and job but that never lasted. You don't want to take your mother and father for granted as later on in life, one does regret it. One really has to think about the consequences. Sometimes it's not exactly what we're trying to hear what it is the truth. At least that's how it come at to be . Had I listened I'd be in a different light now, so listen to your parents.

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30 yr old female from newcastle,indiana looking for pen pals i believe in second chances..I have been disabled since i was 15 yrs old i like to meet new ppl but if the fact of me being in a wheelchair stops you from wanting to get to know me then ok just give me the heads up i am a cool kind hearted person i have a big heart been through alot.,wanna know more just ask.
Do you want to be friends with me lets write each other?

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I don't care if you are in a wheel chair. I like to meet new people . Write me and I'll write you back.

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Is it true that they give male prisoners pills to control their sex drive? If so do all male prisoners get them and are they madnatory? What else do you guys do to control your urge? Since you have no privacy even at night since you share cells how do you deal with no sex

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Answer to Samantha ĖNO they don't give male prisoners pills for the libido unless theyíre requested. For legal reasons medication is only administered by choice. Medication cannot be forced on anyone. As for how prisoners relieve sexual drives the most common thing is masturbation. If one has a good imagination, one can fantasize. Some prisons have homosexuals so if you're into that then that's another way. There is privacy at night, especially in cell living. One has his times, but in a dorm setting it would be more of a process, but it's common nothing to be ashamed about. Some inmates are married and have conjugal visits every three months for about three days. So the possibilities are there for those who wish to indulge in such behavior

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im 14.how did it feel to kill someone?

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I plead the 5th on that question, other then it's never good to kill another human being because once that person is gone its forever. You have to remember those people have family that will suffer emotional stress for the rest of their lives. The loss of a loved one brings on a whole new set of problems and issues. Television, video games and books like to glamorize death. But itís not a fantasy world when you actually do it in the real world. Spending the rest of your life in prison where someone tells you all the time when you can or can't do something. So don't believe the hype, as they say, always respect life and your fellow human beings. My mistake would be one I wouldn't want you repeating the thing you need to focus on and be interested in, arenít death and workings of a criminal mind. Think of studying CSI type courses. This way, at least you'll be able to benefit from for time, being focused yourself and on education and making plans as to what you wish to take in college or to other ways of satisfying your interests without resorting to actually experiencing it. I wish you much success in life. Don't let yourself be influenced by negative influences. Good luck in your positive endeavors.

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Do you think you will ever find that one true love?
I have a brother who was also in prison for 7 years, he is now happily married to a girl that was his girlfriend before he even got incarcerated.

And to all the people that might think a man or women incarcerated does not deserve to be loved, well they do, they are just like you. They have a heart and it might even be more grand then yours. Keep in mind that everyone always deserves a second chance.

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Rocio,
I just want to say thank you for your input and positive attitude towards inmates. You're a criminal justice major? That sounds fascinating. Who Better to learn from than actual criminals? We are not all bad, and deserve a second chance. By doing this I'm hopefully doing some good. Hopefully helping someone not going down the incorrect path. You've experienced the ďgoing awayĒ of a loved one for seven years, first-hand. So you can relate and are able to see that people do change for the better , learning by their bad experiences. It does help very much to have a support network. As for finding that one true love yes, I believe there is someone out there for me. I mean, real love, not just appreciation because there for me. Iíll continue to look. And I have been. Who knows she is probably right in front of me, but I just don't realize it yet. I educated myself in legal criminal law, and especially math. I was able to pick it up better now. And I have a high school diploma, so I wasn't a complete Burro. Smile. Now, just trying to help my 15 year old sister get the college as I tell her there's nothing wrong with wanting something better. At the same time, though, don't lose sight of who you are or where you came from, or look down on people, because you feel you're better than them. I'd like for my sister to send me a letter one day saying she's a criminal justice major, lawyer ,Dr., Judge or who knows even warden of a prison. Smile. that would be something, my family means a lot to me. I always worry about my sisters though. The guys can fend for themselves. I want to wish you luck and much promise in your life endeavors. Hope to hear from you again. Yes I do have a big heart, and always try to stay humble, as everyone I have my faults. I think one of them is to fall in love with all the women I see. I'm just kidding. I hope I was able to bring a little chuckle to your day.

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Do you Belive In God

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The answer to your question would be a yes, I do believe in a higher being, though not a specific religion. So I'm not a Christian. I do not knock people, though, regardless of whether Christian, Catholic, Buddhist, Muslim, or etc. etc. Who is to say who's wrong and who's right? Throughout the centuries people have used religion to justify genocide, hatred, war, subjugation and other abuses on race or people as they didn't believe in their god. If being a Christian, and believing in God helps you by giving you peace of mind, joy, happiness and then that's all that should matter. This question is a loaded one. I can go into a very deep discussion on it. Probably write a book. This is a very touchy subject. I like to joke around and say I'm an atheist, but as I said I do believe in a higher power who will judge me when the time comes. I have my rituals that give me peace of mind as I said before, I don't knock or make judgments about other people's religion. Though I do have my own personal views, and based on my own experiences and knowledge acquired over the years with the same thought in mind. I do try to do the right thing as everyone. I do have my own faults and shortcomings, always trying to improve on my way of thinking. I have come a long way. I say more power to you for your beliefs and love God. And yet not judge other people's beliefs.

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Hi my name is angel in i have a 3yr old son in i need some adivice on how to keep my so out the pin.
What should i do with my son he dont listen to nothing i say. He is so hard headed. I am tring to get the doctor to give him some thing to calm him down but the day he is suppose to go i end up forgetten about at

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To Angel.
You know what's funny. I just had a neighbor named Angel, who is just paroled. some coincidence that would be. Parole is not difficult. You just need to discipline yourself. I know jobs are not easy to come by, but getting a job or something that'll keep your time occupied as a first step. I think when people have too much time on their hands, it leads the mischief. Also the type of people you hang around with. Iím not saying to forget about your friends. But just those who just look for any type of mischief, of course staying away from drugs also helps. I don't know if you use or not, Don't get discouraged when things don't seem to go right. It's a learning process. You have to think of your three year old boy anytime you might make a decision that will affect them. If you're on parole or probation is the first step is to get off since that's like a shackle. Your priority is your son. Right now, everything else should be irrelevant. Sometimes it may seem hard to change. But it's just in your mind, the hardest part is wanting to change and taking that first step , the rest is easy because you already made the hardest decision, which was to change. Anyone who claims to be your friend and wants you to make a bad decision is not your friend. If you have to be a sucker to feel included in your hanging around with the wrong crowd. Believe me, once you get locked up they won't be no where in sight. Or buy the stuff your baby needs . So don't let guilt prevent you from changing itís the right step. I wish you good luck in your son.

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William Shakespeare said, "Some words may hide others," so I've read over your poems many times. If you'd share more, your poetry would be provocative. My question: If a convicted murderer claims to have had some type of a miraculous redemption, should that inmate be believed if he keeps wicked company, still?

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Yes you're right words behind others having a redemption doesn't mean one has to forgo past acquaintances. So, I don't see why an inmate not be believed if he keeps with the company. It would be like having religious relatives. They don't stop going to family outings, because there is a soldier's family. They just don't indulge in such stuff, one needs to be judged by their actions, not by what others do. It don't matter if he's a murderer or just a drug addict and everyone is a potential murderer They just haven't been placed in such a situation. Don't be so quick to judge. People change their lives all the time. So it's something feasible. Of course if they're sincere and not using it as an excuse to avoid other issues. Everyone assumes every inmate has a certain angle. They after all, the con in convict is not there for nothing. So don't let the look of the book, fool ya. Take time to read the first page is before you make your on whether the story is sincere

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Hello Mr. Rockwell, I'm a clean-cut white kid from a good family who now lives in a somewhat tough neighrborhood close to my school that I'm attending. I've engaged in a few scuffles because I'm a clean-cut typical-looking white person and don't look threatening. Can I still be "me," while discouriging future attacks? My father once told me: Never judge a book by it's cover. But it's been my experience that many people do. Is there some way through body language or some type of metaphysical action I can do that will convey to any potential preadator that I'm not some easy mark while still being well-groomed, polite and curteous to my fellow communtiy members? Thanks in advace for any words of wisdom you may have and I hope all is well with you and you are still writing, being creative and doing great! Thanks, Pj

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Clean Cut white kid hua?(smile) Yea the first thing, you must not show fear. Yet not act like your shit don't stink. Sometimes people since that your in fear or are disgusted by their way of being. Take Paris Hilton for example. Anyone else would have never done time for what she did. But because she publicly thumbed her nose at everyone as if she couldn't be touched or was too good to attend court. She never even showed any emotion, like it was a joke to her, thinking her family's money would get her out. She didn't count on the public outrage of her attitude and had she showed emotion and being humbled. The backlash he created would've never ensued. The judge was put in a corner. He could no longer look the other way. So he had to act upset and had her returned to custody. Itís true you must never judge a book by its cover, so you have the right idea. You continue to be you, the scuffles as long as you don't try to avoid them will only earn your respect and in time they'll ignore you. Do you know a lot of the time they're hiding their own fear by doing this. When they seel you don't back down they'll feel scared. I've taken bumps and bruises, but I've always gotten back up earning their respect. The most respectful person can be a coldhearted individual. Don't ever change who you are, as thatíd be giving up your identity. Once you do that, you might as well spend over. Iím not saying her go postal on anyone. That's never a good thing, but don't be afraid to get a black eye in the end it will pay off. And when you don't back down or take a different route when you're always walked down the same one. Yes you do need to be careful with those predators. They don't do no good for no one. It doesn't matter what color you are, everyone needs to be judged by their own actions. Many people do judge a book by its cover, that doesn't mean you have to. I have also read Nietzsche. Fascinating stuff, you need to speak to people on their level. You know what I recommend is the art of seduction and the 48 laws of power. I think you'll find them very interesting submerges you into some forms of human behavior. Used that as a guide not as a law, like everything. It has its drawbacks, I wish you luck in your endeavors. PJ keep your head up and stay strong.

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Why

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Dear anonymous,
why? That was short and to the point. Why? You and me were things over me a choice of bad Judgment and be in the wrong place at the wrong time. I guess you can say being an idiot also comes into play. Though I donít want to make excuses. The vast, probably would have been something else, or by pushing up daisies by now. He wasn't so much the intent or the why , but the who is(innocent bystanders) and even though I didnít pull the trigger the law found me guilty.

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If you were let into the outside world again how would your life be any different?

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Now as to how life would be different now. Now that's a loaded question, as one can talk a good one lwhile in prison, yet all hold different outlooks once released. I think the chage has to occur within these walls. I've had plenty of time to contemplate, what and why got me into that prison to begin with. I've made personal changes myself, that would make me a better person without using a copout as an excuse, I've owned up to my circumstances and want to do something better. I want to be able to wake up with a female by my side every morning with the sense and ordor of her body on my domain and want to help out my mother and my two sisters. Brothers can fend for themselves smile, the law of the jungle. I've educated myself in here, I refrain from bad addictions, so that won't be a problem for me. I think the hardest thing for me would be readjusting to society. The wisdom, knowledge and discipline. I've acquired in here would allow me to succeed.

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Is prison really like in movies, where if you are young and good looking you have to either fight or find you a daddy to take care of you?
Some of the people
I have written to have told me about these new electronic beams that
zap you and cause you pain , sounds weird, but have you ever seen that
where you are ? thanks.

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The answer to your first inquiry, No! Prison is not how is portrayed in movies, most of it is outdated or myths that are being exploited to have a more marketable movie is vary from state to state myself speak for California, a different types of prisons whose house different types of people in general population. So you wouldn't see child molesters, rapists or homosexuals here in protective custody. So when you see the movie is how they're all mixed to fabrication. And that's regardless of what he and less of course there are sensitive. They just don't take people's booty smile, regardless of how you know, that don't mean guys don't do. But that's basically how far it goes. You still have to stay in your own 2 feet, or you'll just be used for a person's word is law that respect will long way. As far as those electric Beach referred to a Horatio Alger that are out there in a balloon fetish. Right now that he's teaching as she points in these at you or one with rabbit ears that they touch you said you along with some strong chemical sprays. No one say whoever told you, that is lined with beans are experimental still. So they could be using them as Ginny's I've seen a story on in Iraq. I can say one thing, though, that is the future that yes it does sound weird, thank you for stopping by and taking the time to have Your questions asked.

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How does it feel to kill someone

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Previous answer--------You ask what it's like to kill another person. It's nothing to brag about, nor gratifying, unless you're just a cold-blooded person or some type of serial killer. It takes an emotional toll. Because not only did you destroy another person's life, but his families as well. Don't listen to the hype on T.V. , in the movies, video games and books. Different people react to it differently after many years. It really makes you think that it\'s really not all that. You aren\'t one of those people, one hears about on the news all the time are you? Who are planning to go out with a bang. Washington has prisons for that! you be good! I\'m glad this site fascinates you, as you fascinate me to. I always had a thing for redheads. Then again, I've had a thing for women in general,( smile )is that bad? Don't be shy about writing in with more questions you might not like what you hear from me. But you get the real from me. After so many years your outlook changes a lot of things

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Ok to start of with I would like to know why do prisoners have a web site? When I heard about this I was like OMG! Yes this pisses me off. People who commits crimes to be put in prison should be doing more than surfing the internet and getting penpals. What it helps the prisoners? Well who the hell helps the victims that a prisoners dicisions affects? Who helps the kids and the mothers that has lost there child(ren)? Prisioners should be stripped of all priviliages.

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yes, I guess OMG! Would be the right word for someone who couldn't believe why a prisoner would take the time to hopefully help someone to not make the same mistakes as he did. One canít change what has already happened or lessen the hurt caused by the loss of a loved one. This for me is just one way to correct past wrongs, I'm sorry for any loss you've suffered at the hands of someone, but by judging everyone in the same sentence will not allow you or me to find healing. And just to make you feel more at ease. Inmates don't have access, nor are they allowed to surf the web. So you need not worry about some predator out there trying to hurt anyone. Yes, prisoners do have to get educated and rehabilitated before being released back into society. You have to understand, you don't want some angry and bitter person leaving with a grudge because people with the same way of thinking and mentality towards prisoners decides ďthe hell with them, they don't deserve or should not be allowed to correct their errors.Ē Just as you were able to freely express your opinion here, without censorship, there is no reason why I shouldn't be able to as well. Having penpals for support, helps in the rehabilitation process and allows for caring people to demonstrate to those forgotten souls behind these grey walls that they're not forgotten. Your letting hatred and revenge cloud your better judgment. As for privileges, prisoners have been losing them gradually and at the rate they're disappearing, rest assured, pretty soon we will not have any. We don't live in Disneyland as some would like you to believe. On that note, Iíll close your out. All I ask is to give prisoners benefit of the doubt before you judge all of us.

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where do you go for fairness if your in what i feel is a corrupt system?
FIRST TRIAL:
you have a Judge that is friends with the deceased family and puts family and friends on a jury, then sentences you to death when they have the admitted killer, the deceased family had been promised the DP because my hubby didnt want to be seen as a snitch he backed out of the plea and he was sentenced to death, luckly because they all messed up after 5 years we got off deathrow,
SECOND TRIAL:
to cover their butts of the first trial they messed up big time with our 2nd trial its all in the transcripts to see,

there are parts of the transcripts missing, the jury selection being one, probably because of the way the DA questioned the jury when selecting them,
They show the DA lied in court,
The Judge went into the jury room,
They also show the judge had her own opinion, "we put in for our post conviction appeal i think that was it?" i believe lots of people would off gotten in to trouble with our appeal or so i believe, it had lots of motions, which at first our new appointed lawyer was willing to put in, but now he isnt willing too, i believe he has been gotton too, he wanted my hubby to send the transcripts back to him, WHY a lawyer wouldnt want them,he would get his own unless "someone" didnt want my hubby having all that evidence to prove what they all did wrong, our new appointed lawyer is no longer our lawyer,
our last trial the DA also stopped evidence being heard by the jury because waivers hadnt been signed by my hubby, our old lawyer didnt defend him at all , it goes on and on, they violated his 4th 5th 6th 14th amendment to the united states constitution. i dont totally understand it all, but what i do know is my hubby is never going to get a fair trial, also just before our last trial one of our WILLING wittnesses "committed suicide" he was locked up at the time, he was very pleased to be helping my hubby, it would of helped us alot, but 3 days before the trial began he "committed suicide" just after he was transfered to the jail, it has never sat right with me, it makes no sence at all, there has been many things that havent sat right with me, but when i have questioned it, i have been told to shut up or i was being paranoid,
i cant afford a lawyer so where do i go to make sure my hubby gets a fair trial? please can you help,
what court/people would be interested to know that they have crooked judges, DAs and lawyers in their system? and stop this from happening,
P.S the innocents project isnt any good either, the lawyer running that was also once my hubbys lawyer who asked me "how i wanted him to beg for my husbands life as deathrow was the only place my husband was going" all because he didnt like me asking questions on my husbands behalf by email as he wouldnt answer letters or calls from my hubby,
all we wont is a sentence in proportion with his part in the crime, the other 3 guys that were with him that night played a bigger part but got less time much less, they got 40 years but my hubby 1st got DP then chance of parole in 2059, i must of emailed every organisation thats supposed to help but no one answers, no ones got the balls to stand up and say the judge did wrong,
so where do we go?? i bet you guys dont even answer:-)
take care God Bless you all:-)

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Well to start off with I hear your frustration. The wheels of justice or slow, but you must never give up on knocking on doors eventually someone will let you in, just so you'll stop bugging( no pun intended) There are organizations out there who dedicate themselves to exposing wrongdoing. Here is an address I have you can write and get information.
Justice denied, P.O. Box 68911, Seattle, WA 98168. This magazine is dedicated to exposing cases of wrongful convictions. You can probably find something in there that can be useful to you in the meantime, write your local and federal representatives. You can file a complaint with the state bar of Tennessee. Of course he needs to continue the state to appeal. Then once exhausted state habeas corpus relief, state and federal level. I know, you may not really understand all this, but those are steps you must take. Here is also an address, National lawyers Guild, prison Law Project 132 Nassau Street, Suite 922 New York, NY 10038. You can seek information from them on lawyers issues. You may be able to find those sites on the web, but I myself don't have them. They will be including a resource Center, where you will eventually have people to contact, which will be useful to family members who seek information about legal issues are just from what he described. In regards to your husband's case. You have good grounds. The judge should have never conducted trial. That's a conflict of interest and is a violation of his constitutional rights to a fair and unbiased trial. He needs to bring up those ground on his appeal and he also can't sit around and let someone else do is work used to getting that law library and study only he knows his case better than anyone. But he needs to file miss conduct complaints and even write to your local media expose what you feel is a very corrupt system laws confusing, but you have to hold yourself together, for his sake. He must let the lawyers do their part, though. Or your husband can proceed pro se he can file motions to appellate courts of your state. So all evidence transcripts are forwarded to him. That's his right and you need to make it your mission to exposing corrupt prosecutors and judges with like-minded people from your area. I'm sure they want you to go away, but you must not let yourself forming your own organization, if need be. Nothing is corrected without a struggle at the same time. It must be a productive exposure. Yes I agree with you on the innocent project. It's hard to receive actions, another good source is law students in your local college or looking for the experience. They taken on cases and gotten people exonerated. So there are plenty of avenues to take don't get discouraged by rejections yet don't be a nag because that can be counterproductive. You'll be looked at like some crazy lady. The good part is he the least off death row. So a wrong was corrected now. You must write up the process, and you may once again succeed I myself have been incarcerated 18 years. Yet, the struggle continues, but the worst thing a lawyer hates is for people to keep calling all the time for any little thing, or even worse to have other people call them family members. So just be patient and look for support organizations in your area and make yourself useful, make a change so that you don't happen to no one else. You can be a crusader for the cause of justice

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Name :Lynn, I don't really have a question - more a comment. Mr. Jones, you are quite obviously where you should be and where you should stay for the rest of your life. I read with interest your answers to what you think about "rats" and how it felt when you took another persons life. I must say it was extremely enlightening into the mind of a killer. You answer questions with a rather obvious stab (no pun intended if this was your preferred choice of murder) at trying to appear relevant and intelligent (good thing for spell check!) However, your clear lack of remorse for what you have done as a whole is abundantly clear in every word you have written. When asked what it feels like to kill another human being your answer was:

"Truthfully, and sadly, most of us kill without ever feeling any type of emotion. I guess is the reason why one may had to kill. No one should ever think about how feel to take another's life. The thought alone is enough to tell you how you feel and if that's not powerful enough on to the thought of killing yourself. Not so cool. Antoria, I have answered question to the best of my ability, hopefully I have simmered down your darkness"

Who the heck do you think you are kidding? It doesn't take a genius to read between the lines and see what you are actually saying! You said, a. I had no emotion when I killed another human being and, b. since I had no emotion I felt it a necessity to kill and, c. the thing that disgusts me most about you is that you actually believe that you are some kind of victim and that you shouldn't have to think about what you have done because that would hurt you too much - HELLO - you just said in a previous answer that you have NO EMOTION. Obviously you don't. You are a typical clinical sociopath who has no care or consideration for others - you only care about yourself. The whole point of putting murderers behind bars is to protect people who have emotion and compassion and remorse from soulless people like yourself and to hopefully make you think about what you have done while you rot in your little grey cell while life passes by. You aren't thinking about what you have done. You are trying to portray yourself as something you are not. You are not intelligent; you are not giving people useful information or counseling people. You are a shallow, useless person (that's a strong word to describe someone like you - animal would be a better description).

The most offensive of your answer to the question "what does it feel like to kill another person" is the ending sentence "I hope I have simmered down your darkness". Her darkness? You are the dark and evil thing that lurks in alley's and under children's beds giving them nightmares. You are the hideous monster that normal, socialized human beings fear they will be accosted by while grocery shopping, returning home from dinner and going about their daily routine.

Obviously you have no shame or remorse for what you have done. You never will. No amount of counseling will help a freak like you. You are abnormal and grotesque to actual human beings. You condemn people who "rat" - but aren't these people just trying to do the right thing and make sure that psychos like yourself are off the streets to ensure that their family or friends are not victimized by you? Sure, some of them rat to get a better deal when they are facing prison time but quite frankly must people "rat" to ensure that evil people like you can never hurt innocent people again. Poor you!

How did it feel to kill another human being? You never answered the question because you can't. You looked deep into your soul to ask yourself how it felt to actually kill someone else (obviously not in self defense, probably over a drug deal gone bad - and yes, I watch the First 48) and all you came up with was "I have no emotion and I don't care if I killed someone". You won't revisit your thoughts about what you have done because you know you'll come up with the same thing every time....you don't care. No remorse, no guilt, no shame.

I'm glad that you are where you are and I hope you stay there forever. I also hope that the family of your VICTIM comes forward at any parole hearings you may have (I hope to god you NEVER have any.) I'm going to research your case to ensure that your victimís family has the information you have posted. That way, you can't go into the hearing pretending that you have any remorse at all since you have written that you DONíT!!!

In closing, if your passion is writing, take an English class or something. Your spelling is atrocious, your grammar is pathetic, your punctuation is laughable...I could go on for hours. Stop trying to be something you are not. You are not a sensitive artist with a talent for writing. You are a disgusting degenerate murderer with nothing more to say than a two year old trying to get attention by urinating on the floor. Give it up and go lift weights in the yard with your girlfriend "Bubba". Quit trying to be something - you never will be anything more than what you are right now - a murderous sociopath with nothing to live for but dropping the soap in PRISON!!

Peace out "Homie" LMFAO

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Lynn,(and Jon)
In regards to your comment which I felt was enlightening, and Warden Jon shouldnít be making excuses for Rockwell. Thatís the whole point of the website. She (Lynn) felt strongly about it and she stated her opinion. Thatís why you need to choose wisely. Prison Is full of people who like to brag about How bad ass of person he is. You (JON) shouldnít be defending him, for he knew what he signed up for, If he doesnít like the heat get out of the fire. One always has to keep it real and honest. Its true what she said aboutĒ not giving people useful information or counseling peopleĒ After all thatís the whole purpose of this site or at least thatís what you led me to believe. One needs that kind of feedback to see a different point of view. I didnít see anything with her response. Rockwell just needs to write more clearly instead of sounding to sophicticated .(oops lost my dictionary). Smile. He needs to write it were it is simple. I couldnít even understand what he was saying. But youíve got a retraction and itís exactly what you needed. Wouldnít you agree? On that note Iíll close. At this letter all signs are good. Donít be discouraged or offended by the letters like that, cause it wonít be the last and one just needs to approach it in a respectful manor.

Q:

I have been writing to prisoners for the past 10 years. My brother ended up in prison and it opened my eyes to the importance of maintaining outside ties. Anyway, that was just a little background on me. My question is this: Do prisoners ever get to the point where they no longer want outside contact? I have a pen-pal that I have been writing to for the past seven years. In the beginning he was very attentive, sweet and happy to have me in his life. Things happened where we might lose contact, but we always got back in touch with each other. This last time I wrote he seemed different. He was happy to hear from me and said he missed me, but he barely wrote me a one page letter to my six pages. Not to mention that I send him letters that he doesn't even respond to. I know that he lost an appeal and still has a good 10 more years to go. (If he had won it, he would have been out this past year). I'm wondering if that has something to do with it. Anyway, he keeps shutting me out now. If I push, he gets mad, but at least I get a response. :) I can be a pain in the ass, but if I don't show I care...who will? Anyway, I'll write or send cards and half the time I get nothing in response. Obviously after seven years I've grown to care for him. Note: we were never a couple, so we don't have that type of issue surrounding us. He has told me if he was free he would want to be with me. He has also told me he loved me because I have stuck by his side, but that is it concerning that type of thing. I consider him a friend and want to keep him in my life, but I'm at the point where I don't know if I should even keep trying. I've kept my word and tried to prove that I am a loyal friend, but there is only so much that I can do. Is it time for me to just leave him be? Thanks for any and all responses.

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Dear Cindy,
You asked if prisoners ever get to the point where we no longer want outside communication. Actually, yes, after being incarcerated so long one goes through phases, where one just wants to be alone. You mentioned he just lost his appeal. That no doubt has probably brought on this bout of depression, as that's what it comes down to. He just need some time to get his marbles together. I've been through that phase where I just shut everyone out. Its same with some in the free world, at times, one just wants to disappear, or get caught up in other things. One kindof drifts off without realizing it. I have a friend that I've been writing for the past 14 years. We've also drifted off, but we always come back to each other. I've always gave her space, but she's always come back. One can't mistake appreciation for love because that can cause problems in the future. Being a loyal friend while he's incarcerated says a lot. Even being a pain in the ass may help him snap out of whatever slumber he's, I don't know what type of letters you write him, because if it's just nagging her telling him to do this and that,Ö it seems to me that you want something more, and at the same time, you don't. So even if you're a little confused how do you think he's going to be. I think you both need to make it clear what you both want and take it from there. A reality of it is that letters are a whole different reality than once you actually are in contact on a daily basis. I realized that while being housed in solitary confinement for eight years communicating through letters. Then when I finally did get out and was able to have visits and physical contact with this person. I saw another side of that person, I wasn't seeing before. So you might have to let him find his way first, let him get out of his system. If you really cares, he will be back. Also, you leaving and coming back can also have something to do with it. Maybe he's poured a lot into your relationship that when he realized it wasn't being reciprocated. So now he doesn't want to be disappointed again. I think the most important thing you can do though, is communicate your feelings. Just as you wrote them here, so you can clear the air. You don't want to leave anything hanging its best to do it now rather than later. This way, your friendship is not lost and there won't be any misunderstandings. So before you let him be or not, air out your concerns to him and he can take it from there. I hope I've answered your question as best I could do this in his essay. I hope everything works out. Sometimes we don't appreciate what we have until it's gone. I pushed someone away before and was never the same after thatÖ.

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Who are you accused of killing?

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An innocent bystander,though I wasn't the trigger man, the law found me guilty. Ive exhausted all my appeal options for the most part. I never give up though cause life continues.

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Raven,
I am a friend to a woman that has been sentenced to life without the possibility of parole. She is accused of killing someone for insurance money. Who I am worring about is her sister. Her younger sister is greaving so hard I am worring about her. Her sister has been incarcerated for almost 2 years now and there isn\\\'t a day go by that we havent cried together about this. What kind of advice could I give to the sister to help her with this.
Brandy

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Yes, two years, already having passed since she was incarcerated is a long time. But she's the one who needs to be strong. So she can be there to support her sister. Its not the end of the world there are appeals and habeas corpus relief. But are being distraught is not a help her sister. If that's what she wishes to do you can't change what already happened, plus without sounding cold her sister put herself there. It's a sad situation, but she needs to get over it and move ahead. She needs to stop feeling guilty for what her sister has done, one canít blame themselves for the ill deeds of one's siblings. One chooses what is one's lifestyle, but it will get easier as time goes by. You Brandi just need to be there to make sure she doesn't go over the edge. I've been incarcerated since 1990, yet I still have my sense humor, I exercise to keep my body and mind fresh and sharp. I know itíd be wrong for me to say you need to give her a few good slaps, tell her to shake it off or something. Sometimes grieving is a good thing, it cleans the soul. She must never lose faith, though. People get reversals on their convictions all the time she needs to start looking for organizations that can help her sister as doing nothing while feeling helpless and sorry for oneself is doing nothing for her sister. Her sister is it least still there for her to see and visit, other people are not so lucky. She can't live her sister's life. She needs to live her own overall, though one can really do anything but give her advice and support in the hopes that she'll get over it soon

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About the poster: single mother of 1. cute!!!

Question: I was with my baby's father for 10 years and he was in and out of jail and prison while we were together. While he was in, he would send me love letters and promises to marry me and all that stuff but then a month later after he gets out, he's back to being a playa;. Well, he's in prison now for murder but was only sentenced for 10 years (thank God!) but he's back on asking me to wait for him and talking about getting married when he gets out. He claims that he's turning his life around and the only thing that would make him happy is for us to be together. Should I consider waiting on him and give him another chance or is this the same old rap he's been singing before? Whudduya think?

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I believe everyone deserves another chance, what really matters though is if you believe he deserves another chance. It is easy for one to say he\'s going to change while in prison, but a totally different thing once someone is free. I\'m not saying it can\'t happen or it wonít. Sometimes when you love someone, even though it hurts, you must set them free. So you can use your heart. Him being your child\'s father changes things a whole lot, because that contact will always be there. I\'m sure there\'s plenty of men, who wouldn\'t mind being your baby daddy (smile.) I\'m one of them. Just kidding, half love is strange, sometimes some girls like bad guys. So backing out once things are not going good is kind of messed up, If you knew how he was before you started being with him. Look, I don\'t want to sound like a broken record, but people show love differently and every guy always has that special girl in their life. Guys see girls in two different ways. One, who he can take home to mama and those who are Jewish useful for a night of some freaky Dickie. You can always just be friends with benefits, (smile). I allwas kid, my sister that she needs to marry some rich old man so she doesn\'t need to worry about $. Then still be able to her thing. Of course, Iím just kidding. All in all you need to dig deep and figure out how you want to approach that may be seeing his life flash before his eyes might have found finally woke him up. Whatever you decide though, I wish you good luck and much happiness.

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how do you feel about rats/snitches who inform on their co-defendants?

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Miss Cindy
asked how one feels about snitches and rats retells on their codefendants. Ya, I completely am against it. I feel they are the lowest form of humanity. Reason being is that one chose that lifestyle, and once things don\'t go your way and situation turns dire, one is willing to throw people who they considered friends at one time under the bus without a second thought. I\'m in that situation, and even though I\'m sure every inmate says it. I didn\'t even do nothing, but I was unwilling to bury my codefendant. So here I am 18 years later, but I\'m not bitter though, because Iíd done it again. If I can\'t get out right away, Then I guess I\'m here to stay. I actually just passed up my get out of jail free card. Probably, but it would be wrong to do something like that and bitch and gripe about it being done to me. People would say I\'m living in the past. It is no longer like that, maybe is true, but that\'s how I feel about that. There is nothing wrong with someone changing your lifestyle, but done in a way where someone else is not hurt.

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What is it like to kill another person?

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You ask what it\'s like to kill another person. It\'s nothing to brag about, nor gratifying, unless you\'re just a cold-blooded person or some type of serial killer. It takes an emotional toll. Because not only did you destroy another person\'s life, but his families as well. Don\'t listen to the hype on T.V. , in the movies, video games and books. Different people react to it differently after many years. It really makes you think that it\'s really not all that. You aren\'t one of those people, one hears about on the news all the time are you? Who are planning to go out with a bang. Washington has prisons for that! you be good! I\'m glad this site fascinates you, as you fascinate me to. I always had a thing for redheads. Then again, I\'ve had a thing for women in general,( smile )is that bad? Don\'t be shy about writing in with more questions you might not like what you hear from me. But you get the real from me. After so many years your outlook changes a lot of things

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My boyfriend of 10 months just got out of prison, he was down for 6 years. Anyway, he shows no emotion and being a women, I show plenty of it and I expect at least a little out of him. How can I tell if he cares about me? He says he loves me and buys me material things but when he messes up he says he's sorry and buys me something, its really nice of him but he shows me nothing of meaning to me. How do I deal with him?

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it's funny you should ask that question because I went through something similar myself recently, she felt that I wasn't showing enough emotion and caring towards her. That doesn't mean he doesn't care or doesn't love you. It's just people have different ways of showing caring and love. First there should be a trust and understanding between the both of you. Prison does desensitize a person somewhat after so many years having to put up a different face, Not looking soft. It\'s going to take a bit, as he readjusts to society,. As he gets more comfortable heíll begin to open up more. I know one time after doing four and half years I was afraid just to walk down the street. I have seen some guys get disappointed as well, having invested their hearts to a relationship and not have it worked out. Maybe he\'s afraid to really show commitment, no matter the lack of a motion he may show ,underneath there is feelings. After all, we are all humans, buying you gifts is his way of saying he loves you. Because if he didn\'t care, he wouldn\'t even do that, much less say sorry. At least he\'s trying so he should get an ďaĒ for effort. As to how to deal with him, you need to be patient, let him open up gradually. You don\'t want to force him, as he\'s dealt with correction officers trying to control him, and that\'s the last thing he needs. Sit down with him and have a long talk and let him know how you feel. It could be he doesn\'t realize he\'s doing something that hurts you. You do have to communicate though to get both your feelings out there. Take what he\'s doing as trivial as it may seem to you as a sign he does care.

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I want to learn about how prisons are rehabilitating inmates to hopefully not become repeat offenders and adapt to life after prison (in cases where one is being released). I wanted to know how you feel the "system" is doing on such matters, whether it's great, ok, nonexistent, or anything in between. I really appreciate your feedback and would love to talk more with you, as this is something I hope to do research on and hopefully one day improve upon. Thank you!

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Where to begin, that is a loaded question, California Department of Corrections and rehabilitation. The latter word was added in 2005 if this emphasizes the changing attitudes in Sacramento . It has come along way since I first came to the system in August 1991. Before all education vocation opportunities were only available to lower security yards. (Level 4 180 designs) were basically warehousing institutions. That was considered the worst and more dangerous prisoners who they couldn't just place at S.H.U. programs. Because regardless of the situation, though one can better themselves by one's own ends by setting aside time in ones day to study certain subjects of interest, instead of watching TV. I think the first thing one must do, is to not go live back in area one left. If one wants to succeed one and find an unfamiliar area, where it will take a while to adjust able to concentrate on things one needs to do. I have a brother who was on parole for three years. When he first got out he did have to get his hommie days out of his system. I would like to think my letters giving him advice also helped. One does need a support network, who doesn\'t allow you to fall into old habits. But there is a program, one can join to help better one self. But when all is said and done, he has to want to succeed. One doesn\'t just turn on and off old habits it does take time. One does need to create opportunities for people incarcerated since those same people will be getting out into society. And you don\'t want them angry at society who they feel rejected them.

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Do people still get raped in Prison?

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I guess you could say it depends on what state you end up in Here in Californians it\'sreally no longer acceptable behavior amongst inmates. Especially in level 4 prisons, Californias prison system is a complicated system of level 1, level 2, and level 3 institutions. The worst the crime the longer the sentance. depending on the crime and term the higher the security you will end up in. I can honestly say that all the time of been in custody, I\'ve never been an institution where that has happened. I\'ve heard of it happening of course depending on what you term as Ray. To me it\'s when you force someone against their will. I have spent time in California youth Authority. When I was younger, it happen there, but people seem to get their perception of how prison is from the movies who glorify the stereotypes or exploit the bad aspects of certain situations. When the reality inside is much different. People fall victim to do their mannerisms, because by nature there will always be predators and prey on the weak. So that can also be considered a form of rape. It doesn\'t always have to entail a sexual thing, but flat-out gang attacks to rape someone does not occur anymore. Those days are from a bygone era. The way institutions are built nowadays, they have almost made it impossible. You are in constant visual observation. that speaking of level 4, of course. The ones and twos are dorms of situations and may be different. They also have a different custody of yards, since it needs protective custody and general population yards. The first two have different standards of conduct. So I couldn\'t speak about that, other than you\'d more likely find these types of people there. Inmates\' conduct in general population is more civilized now. It\'s more unlikely than likely that it would happenon now.